I thought about you today. I try not to do this often, but I was watching Animal Planet. They were filming a pride of lions, their long limbs stretched out in such a leisurely manner, tongues casually licking each other, the initimacy nothing to be ashamed of.
I thought about you, and the nights we spent together. You had just broken up with B. and I... I had been waiting. Always waiting. I'll always wait for you.
It used to be the other way around. I was involved with L. and I thought it was love, but something changed. Over time, you changed me. My eyes strayed, then stayed on you. I wanted to make love to you forever, taste you on my lips, dip my tongue into you and taste your sweetness as I would a delicate peach. And I loved that. I loved tasting you, feeling you clench around me, the feel of your warmth as I wrapped myself around you.
Too late, I realized it. Selfishly, I pulled back, and I'm writing because I miss you. Not just the sex, nor even the love, but the friendship we had built. The one I had come to count on in my time of need. The one I fell in love with.
Is that all there is?
You have new lovers, serial relationships, your eyes turned away, now far away from me, but I can't stop longing for you, for your love. My beautiful Leo lover, the one who tasted of peaches and vanilla. The one I can't stop longing for in my head, and my body can't let go.
I'm sorry I hurt you, love. Come back to me and let me love you once more, this time, I'll be honest and I'll be right.
Current Mood: lonely
Current Music: Aucifer - Datenshi Blue